poem: michael c
at the end of the day i felt so unraveled
i peeled off parts of me i though were you
put my likes in a box along with my smile
put my wants in a box along with my vulnerability
i carved parts out of myself and still
“theres no room here.” and “not for you.”
my head got lost in the shuffling of packing
but i remember you tell me one thing
and do another.
when you retreated against your word
you retreated against me
so i did too
i abandoned awareness.
i thought i could fill the holes you left me with but
bones to hold me up and the heart to keep me going
fell past the wall of my stomach
onto the floor
and they abandoned me
and everyone just watched
and they abandoned me
while with your words
i gutted 20 years of self
and i abandoned me
these holes in me didn’t stop the anger in you
me, by my neck
you knew what you wanted and you went out and got it.
about the writer: michael c.
Künstler navigating between the southern and northern nodes of the moon.
[Michael, if you’re seeing this, I’d love to hear from you. sv]